It's just two weeks until Addison's birthday and I finally did it...I made the call. The call that finalized the draft for the headstone and it is officially in production. Ugh.
I had to call at work because the guy I was working with wasn't in until after work started and I was really hoping not to have to do it during work, but that's how it had to be. I think it actually worked out better because I couldn't allow myself to be emotional about it. I just did it like I was ordering office supplies. Done.
There are still more steps to take, but the biggest one has already been taken. This has been the longest, hardest most emotional project EVER.
It started out as "my" project, but in the end the whole family got involved in many evening "sit downs" to go over and over and over it. Brian really took the lead the last few weeks getting all the logistics ironed out and it really did help me stress a little less.
The man who we have been working with just so happened to have lost his firstborn granddaughter at a full term stillbirth...small sad world. Since he "gets it" he has been spending extra time with us because he knows how important it is that this be JUST right.
So after months of carrying around a paper version in my purse, creating a life size model, visiting "researching" cemeteries, asking for input, lots of tears and worry it is finally getting done!
I don't want to get too excited, but the time line I was given sounds like there is a possibility that Addi's stone could be placed on or before her birthday...oh my gosh! I can't tell you what that would mean.
So there we go, I made the call and I think I am happy about it or as happy as I can be. As my mom pointed out to me, we could spend the next 10 years working on her stone and it would never be perfect because there is nothing perfect about a headstone for your baby. I could make a new change every month, but I have to come to terms that is has already been a year (almost) and it's time. Having it will do more good than any change I could make. So now, we wait.